- CASE FILE
30 something mother. I want to go back to work. I want to get out of bed. I want to be a better mother. I want to live.
ABOUT THIS CASE FILE
In 2008 I had a breast augmentation; Saline inserted through the armpits. Soon after I had severe back pain & numbness and tingling in the arms. Went for nerve testing and nothing was wrong,no carpal tunnel. Began having extreme fatigue but chalked it up to being a busy working mom. Got pregnant in 2012 & had severe placenta previa. After many hemorrhages I gave birth at 23 weeks gestation. *Side note, I have a now healthy 6 year old with Cerebral Palsy & need to get better to take better care of her needs & therapies!* I believe anxiety is due to her birth and being overly worried for her survival, scared of germs & the unknown of the future. Depression due to being isolated for many years to keep baby healthy. In August of 2014 I began to lose use of my left knee. Severe (deep bone) pain. I went to several orthopedic drs without finding anything wrong. I was told by the 2nd ortho that I must have diabetes due to the area of knee that had the most pain, that is what he had seen before. All tests came back negative for diabetes. With the bloodwork, we found I had a positive ANA. I was sent to rheumatology & started the long journey of trying all different medicines, including methotrexate. Nothing helped the knee pain and at this point I was using a cane to be mobile. I saw neurology but everything was normal. My rheumatologist gave up after a year. He told me I need to see another rheumatologist who might have a different idea. I gave up for awhile as my body was so tired of medicines and appointments & was defeated at the thought of starting over with a new dr. I ended up at Mayo Clinic in Jacksonville, FL in September '15. There, tests showed I had bone marrow signal change in my knee for unknown reason & positive ANA for unknown reason. I was told to do 6 weeks of physical therapy. I did PT from Oct-Dec '15 & things got better. I went from no range of motion to being able to walk again. I was put on anxiety & depression drugs after the loss of a family member and lost 30 pounds. I spent another year in bed trying to figure out which depression meds were right for me as they would all knock me out asleep and not let me care for my children. The first med that didn't cause me to pass out was prozac & wellbutrin. I have stayed on those afraid to try anything else, even though I am not "better" and still living life in bed. My knee hurts again, but this time I refuse to limp on it or use an aid because I believe that is what caused my signal changes & need of pt. My joints hurt and are stiff & I have TMJ. I am very sensitive to light & I get migraines frequently, I have to take naps & can't leave bed (not even to eat.) I am always completely exhausted as if I had ran a marathon & don't want to move. I cannot have full conversations as I get stuck on words that I cannot grasp, often. It is to the point I use sing language signals to my children for certain repetitive things. I have what feels like my heart skipping beats, but was told that it is actually my heart having extra beats. I had a new murmur found & that lead to the finding of an Aortic Insufficiency Leak/tricuspid regurgitation. I have a steady high resting heart rate & blood pressure on the low end. This last winter I had pneumonia that turned into pleurisy.
I have many common autoimmune symptoms, however the only thing to show positive is my ANA. I have recently discovered an illness that is being investigated , commonly referred to as Breast Implant Illness (Bii.) I believe there may be a connection with me & BII. I was a healthy person before my implants. I have now had them for over 10 years. At this point I don't care what it is called, I just want to live life! I believe I am not going to be around along time for my children, so last summer I planned a bucket list road trip with them through Europe. I was desperate to create memories they won't forget, with me. Each day we were only able to see sights for maybe 3 hours before I needed to be back in bed. I am pleading for my life. I am willing to put in any work to turn my life around.